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shots of apple cider vinegar

alone in room

with lots of blue

glittering things

twisting face

to twisting sound

reflected reflected reflected

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she performs her rage

for my punishment

for her waves that aren’t just waves

she and her femaleness reminding me of my mother

their female persona

that I make

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Then i have to face the question

what do i want if i am freed from being

what they made me

who need the caregiving

and the comforting

who heard no and are thrashing

kalai